@Brille
Well, its always easy to talk about a person when you only see the negative aspects.
A fair point, but also I haven’t had very many positive experiences with you, and the negative ones have left a pretty foul taste in my mouth. Perhaps my original post didn’t give you enough credit, as you’re certainly a competent CMO, just that your way of doing things is abhorrent and unenjoyable. I would much rather have a slightly less competent CMO who actually interacts with their staff normally than the way you do things. This game, at its core, is not about rushing tech or being technically competent, and you certainly shouldn’t try to excuse your behavior using these reasons.
So yea. I mostly have to do anything myself , because on the other hand if i dont do it, everyone quickly starts to shit at me for allegedly doing nothing against Insert Problem here .
While others have pointed out this valid issue, the unfortunate reality of this situation is that continuing to retaliate with anger only goads others to keep scapegoating you, regardless of if they are wrong. There’s always the opportunity for humour, deflection, subterfuge, or as Hassanira suggested, creating a new character. Fuck man, you could even ahelp it if it’s that bad.
Having consistent meltdowns over being scapegoated and constantly retaliating is also a shitty way for a leader (what a department head should strive to be) to be acting. Like I said previously, there’s better ways to deal with this. I experience in-game racism frequently as a catboy and honestly find it hilarous, and find it a lot of fun to go along with it.
Since i felt, in those situations, unfair treated i did “let the asshole part out”, tried to limit it against people who actually caused it but probably failed often enough.
Those situations seem to be the majority of situations and ‘the asshole part’ of you is always out.
I think @michiru2 made a good point
People CAN change, but I doubt you have. Maybe you might change eventually, but you definitely haven’t.
Maybe if you come back in six months and say “yeah I was going through some shit but that’s over now,”
In your reply to me you hold so little accountability for yourself and your actions, and you’re even downplaying the very things that got you banned, making them out to be isolated, infrequent incidents, when in reality this the normal standard for your behavior, how you behaved 99% of the time (at least in my experience).
Honestly, you don’t even seem to want to admit your behavior is shitty, and you don’t seem to recognize why it’s an issue. You’ve hardly taken accountability for your actions, and one deep breathing exercise is not sufficient to deal with the anger issues you clearly have.
I seriously think you should find someone to talk to about this issues, a therapist or a counselor, so this stuff doesn’t bleed into your real life. I’ve been around people who have anger issues and it destroys relationships and people end up doing things they regret. I’m not saying that’s gonna be you, but this stuff doesn’t magically disappear when you turn into an adult, and it’ll become a bigger problem if you don’t deal with it.