Myself and many others in the Discord, and our community, have life going on outside of the game and quite a lot of us either work long hours at stressful jobs or just have other obligations such as coursework that take time out of our days. We come home, or get some freetime, and just wanna play some Spessman, maybe roleplay a bit, and have some fun, right? It sucks to just… Kinda get shit on, even if it’s in a game that’s what, 19 years old at this point?
I am completely empathetic to this, and I’ve had great difficulty coming home and wanting to play sometimes since that could just be a killshot on the end of my day; on top of everything else I’ve got going on. Sometimes just a bit of Dchat salt or complaining, as minor as that can be on some days, could just be the little cherry on a lame day that just pops it. (as @taste_of_a_liar stated) I’m not blameless in this either, I get upset too (as people know by how much I don’t like being converted into antag stuff, even if that is the game and I accept it)
I’m kinda… taking a break myself, since even with my complete love for much of the community and people I speak with in the discord, I was just getting more and more upset at the game every single round and just dreading certain things, and it became a self-eating cycle. I’m playing on quieter servers that, honestly, don’t really have much happen on them most rounds unless you seek it out and it’s kinda been calming for me for the time being.
Is this a big cringe post that someone can laugh at? Sure, I guess, I don’t really care. What do I have to lose emotionally posting about a damn atmospheric simulator that became a backstabbing simulator?
Despite sometimes having a couple dumb altercations with people, I really care for everyone in the community; everyone has been very understanding to me, at least the names I recognize most of the time, and has been incredibly patient with me.
At the end of the day, all we can do is be the example we wanna see in the community and report what doesn’t click with those principals, and do our best to steer people in the right direction. A game like this is the community. Take a break, play some other games, go relax. We’ll be here for you when you feel better.
Cringe wall of text over, yeah.